Stream of Consciousness: Haku

Prompt: Write a five minute stream of consciousness

Note: I'm writing about Haku because he's instrumental in the part of my story I'm working on for NaNoWriMo, and this is a good way to get a better look at him without writing out a lengthy character chart for the poor thing. I already know what color his hair and eyes are, after all.

Haku
brown hair
dark brown eyes
looks like a girl
I mean he really does
has full pretty feminine lips and beautiful girly eyes
Naruto called him "sis" in the English dub (and nee-chan in the Japanese)
which means sister, by the way if anyone was wondering
wears dark greenish-blue and brown
beautiful
amazing hunter-nin
has a creepy mask with red swirls that remind me of blood
awesome with his senbon (1)
I wish he wasn't so obsessed with Zabuza-sama
Thinks of himself as an object or tool
father murdered his mother and tried to murder him
he killed a whole bunch of people (he was like five, poor thing)
adopted by Zabuza
gratitude?
a bit obsessed
a bit psychotic
self-sacrificing
gets bisected (almost twice)
wears hair up in a bun like Momo Hinamori from Bleach
believes that he serves no purpose other than to do Zabuza's bidding
(I think the demon actually cares about him, too, a little, cause he started crying after Haku died and then viciously sought revenge--actually, I didn't mind that so much, because Gatou really deserved to die after kicking dead-Haku's face)
yes, in canon Naruto he's dead... and resurrected... and dead again
killed by Kakashi (by accident)
while saving Zabuza's ungrateful hide
and bisected by Zabuza's giant kitchen knife
once again... bloody ungrateful scum
I wish he would live
I really wanted him to live
for some reason, he's very likeable
asked Naruto to kill him when he thought he was inadequate--inferiority issues? or just self-esteem issues probably
he shouldn't--he's an amazing ninja (and saved Zabuza's ungrateful hide several times)
uses ice kekkei genkai (2)
it's amazing and beautiful
nearly kills Sasuke
actually, he pretends to kill Sasuke, cause he doesn't like killing
very sweet in reality
wants to fight for the people he cares about (namely, Zabuza)
actually is nice to Naruto
doesn't like killing or being a ninja (because it means he has to kill)

Note: Finished. Okay, so it was a little short (because I only had five minutes), but this helped me sort out my scattered brain a little bit, you know? I have to get to know him really well in order to write him, have to get inside his head and his thoughts and feelings and past, all that nasty stuff. He's just such an interesting character!

(1) senbon - throwing/acupuncture needles (if you don't know what acupuncture is, look it up) that can be used (in Naruto) to either kill or paralyze victims

(2) kekkei genkai - in Naruto-verse it's sort of a special genetic ability that's hereditary and passed down from generation to generation. Haku's special ability is Ice Release (control over ice). In his home country, people with kekkei genkai were hunted and slaughtered, thus the reason his father tried to kill him. Sad huh?